Dear Diary,
Today was spent for the most part chilling with my dearest Tora, she’s taken to being a guardian quite well, she makes a comment about catnip making felines want to take it in the arse… wellllll ill have to try that out!
Anyway near the evening we meet Blueray by the weapons, im still in a bad mood really from Monday and I just get madder and madder as she hammers on and on, about the FUN the shadows like to have… I decide to just leave and goto the psyc ward in the hospital and sit in one of the padded rooms, these places are funny for me, they hold such fucking bad memories, yet they are the most silent and let you gather your throughts so well, I start to rock on the edge of my own insanity
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I repeat over and over its like a fucking mantra to me, then I hear her, she’s found me, Blueray, again with her A…fucking…gain I think to myself, why wont she leave me alone, she talks through the grate to me, and if im being honest I was expecting her to lock me in and walk but she says shes suffered too, I motion her in and tell her to sit, and she does. I’ve seen the spring in her step and a glint in her eye, ever since she returned home, she seems truly happy for being back in the house.
She tells me of her family, her twin brother and her life before tox, I offer her a chocolate bar I was saving for Calleigh in case she was hungry again, she looks shocked when I do this but eats it any way.
Diary there is a moment in battle, where the monsters your fighting for a brief moment become human, The Nazis and the Allies playing football on Xmas day shit like that, this moment when she was telling me of her past I saw a different Miss Darkes, Shes been fucked by this city …. HARD…. The stuff that has happened to her, the darkness that has tainted her, you want the truth diary, I like blueray, not in a eww lets catch a movie and make out kind of way, I think like is the wrong word actually, I respect? Blueray, I Understand? Blueray. I really don’t know.
She loves her family, and for good reason, they have saved her over and over and over, of course she loves them….and ive found the word… I RESPECT that.
**Martko walks home and walks into the apartment, pesti is zonked out on the sofa, he shakes his head and puts his coat over her to make sure shes not cold. He smiles … as he goes into his room and closes the door, his head hits the pillow and out he goes, the scene shifts to a purple hazey vision, Martko is seen walking up the stairs of the pit, slowly each foot fall resonating around like a hammer on a bell, he gets to the top and a dark cloaked figure is standing there. The Figure begins “ Swoooordss.. such a pleasure…what brings you here ?” Martko looks up “you know what ive come for Demon… Let me pass, im taking her back …” he goes to move past the figure but is stopped by it, and pushed off the steps.
martko impacts the concrete below as the dark figure leaps through the air landing on top of him, its hood flops back to reveal bluerays face, mart struggles underneath her as she raises a hand and jams it into his gut she leans down as a black ichor starts to run over his body engulfing him, as the blackness moves into his mouth the last thing Martko hears is .. “Embrace the darkness” blue pulls her hand out of him and licks his blood off her hand .
Martko Bolts up right in bed.. “holy fuck shit…” his face and body covered in sweat.. he falls back looking at his door, he puts both hands over his eyes… and just lies there not wanting to sleep again ..
Showing posts with label Blueray. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Blueray. Show all posts
Monday, September 28, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Post 17: Dance,sit or fuck off.
Dear Diary,
Why don’t I just step off, why don’t I just step off the ledge and let the beast that dwells within out, seems like it’s the popular choice nowadays. There is a reason I won’t turn, I have control and I have focus, the ramblings on the shadows, is just that ramblings. They Walk around claiming they’re free but they far from free, you know what they are like they’re like a cult…. But yeah ‘free’ you know what pisses me off they’re like a light is to a moth, new people come to the city and flock en masse to this already huge faction, but we carry. I. Carry on cause it is all I can do.
So yeah I had Beans on toast today, one of the many luxuries Angus brings me from the mainland when he drops off new arrivals, I opened the can and let the beans hit the pan there was an instant sizzle, pesti came out wearing a shirt that was about a million sizes too big but it looked good, she asked if she could steal some, I said she could, she ate in her room, I ate on the balcony, watching the world walk by below me. I fucking love stuff ‘on toast’.
I went on Ktox today, and just started mouthing off, I had my beer I had my bro and my girl and we had a good time, it’s been … quiet in the family everyone just keeping themselves to themselves. I do it for attention, the Ktox thing people love listening and I love entertaining them, I Bash the shadows on purpose when in Ktox HQ I know one or more will come and give it the big un. I LOVE it, Kaira and Blueray come in after having become shadows.
Kaira Diesel, that made me somewhat sad, i…. I hate seeing her dancing to they’re beat, but she has made her choice. She starts to speak to collin, trys to attack him, I tell them that its enough “Dance, sit or fuck off!” I say, I cant be dealing with the shit im still not right about Monday, but fuck it.
Blueray Darkes, she was happy drinking dancing, all smiley that she is now back where she belongs, I really don’t care, she can do what she likes I have no time for shadows, bar Pestilence.
So Kaira states that she is going to fuck Collin up after my set and so I decide to text her telling her to leave it and I will try and look out for her prowlers. She smiles at this and sends me a text. She has not fallen all the way, just from reading her reply I won’t put it in these pages out of respect, but I believe she … well.. Fuck it I don’t know … well see.
I sort out the collin/kaira situation and head home; I put my head on the pillow and out I go… cheese on toast tomorrow.
Why don’t I just step off, why don’t I just step off the ledge and let the beast that dwells within out, seems like it’s the popular choice nowadays. There is a reason I won’t turn, I have control and I have focus, the ramblings on the shadows, is just that ramblings. They Walk around claiming they’re free but they far from free, you know what they are like they’re like a cult…. But yeah ‘free’ you know what pisses me off they’re like a light is to a moth, new people come to the city and flock en masse to this already huge faction, but we carry. I. Carry on cause it is all I can do.
So yeah I had Beans on toast today, one of the many luxuries Angus brings me from the mainland when he drops off new arrivals, I opened the can and let the beans hit the pan there was an instant sizzle, pesti came out wearing a shirt that was about a million sizes too big but it looked good, she asked if she could steal some, I said she could, she ate in her room, I ate on the balcony, watching the world walk by below me. I fucking love stuff ‘on toast’.
I went on Ktox today, and just started mouthing off, I had my beer I had my bro and my girl and we had a good time, it’s been … quiet in the family everyone just keeping themselves to themselves. I do it for attention, the Ktox thing people love listening and I love entertaining them, I Bash the shadows on purpose when in Ktox HQ I know one or more will come and give it the big un. I LOVE it, Kaira and Blueray come in after having become shadows.
Kaira Diesel, that made me somewhat sad, i…. I hate seeing her dancing to they’re beat, but she has made her choice. She starts to speak to collin, trys to attack him, I tell them that its enough “Dance, sit or fuck off!” I say, I cant be dealing with the shit im still not right about Monday, but fuck it.
Blueray Darkes, she was happy drinking dancing, all smiley that she is now back where she belongs, I really don’t care, she can do what she likes I have no time for shadows, bar Pestilence.
So Kaira states that she is going to fuck Collin up after my set and so I decide to text her telling her to leave it and I will try and look out for her prowlers. She smiles at this and sends me a text. She has not fallen all the way, just from reading her reply I won’t put it in these pages out of respect, but I believe she … well.. Fuck it I don’t know … well see.
I sort out the collin/kaira situation and head home; I put my head on the pillow and out I go… cheese on toast tomorrow.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Post 3: Full Moon
**The Handwriting on this page is very forced, as if it has taken great effort to write.**
Dear diary,
Too day was the full moon and i have had no end of fun.... NOT. Lets take it from the top shall we, i was walking the streets of Tox and went to the alleyway between haven and the TV shop, walking through guess who i spy, Lumi, i dont know why i stopped, she's a shadow and a person who i REALLY hate but something compelled me to do so, anyway we talked. She raved about seeing the true me the night i killed her, about how im no better then the rest, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster. Is that enough ? Want some more ? I dont have to justify what i did and wont, not to anyone including you diary, suffice to say me and her have issue and somewhere down the line shes going down... she had the nerve to say i should join her... yeah in a pigs eye.
So i saw niv today, funny the thing me and her have, theres a tension there who knows what it is, but she doesnt half go on. I decided to have some fun so i took her to one of the rooms in the shelter we had a moment. I got a bottle of ordinary water and poured it onto my hand. Its the first time ive seen somethign other then cockyness in her eyes, i dont know what happened with her and holy water but it looked to scare her i felt bad she disappeared off and i was left to my own devices.
I got the wolfsbane vial from Bohny Just before i started my set in the Ktox HQ, Tora was there, Blueray and my boy Dent, poor guy, hes having some problems with his family hope everything gets straightened out hes a good guy. So i DJ and at the end Calleigh Constantine comes in to take over by this time the moon sings to me, i cant concentrate, i worry about if the bane is going to work or not all of a sudden i start to change, Tora injects me while Calleigh restrains me with magic, thank god it worked. Calleigh constantine, people tell me not to trust her, they say she stab you in the back, but from what i have seen she is very trust worthy, she gave me the wolfsbane, she helped with with being restrainied during my change. Who knows i dont know her enough to Judge.
BLUEEEEEERAYYYYY, that woman, i asked her to meet me after i DJed, i wanted to see if she was ok after the magnet incident. I like blue, not in a 'i want to hump you all night long way' but in a 'ah your cool' kinda way, shes not like the others, she discusses her shit and knows when to and not to involve the family, the feeling isnt mutaul i reckon, Shed probably tear my spine out if given the opportunity.. meh.
So anyhow, i co-ordinate a kick ass defence plan, for the full moon, youd think my family could execute it, but no instead they brawl in the streets and nel is greivously wounded... whatever. Anyhow so the wolves attack, and Kahlen Tears off my arm, Diary...i saw them, as i lay there, broken, in the street bleeding the voices of my friends became quieter and quieter, and theyre voices my baby and darling wifes became louder and louder, my regen had been affected by the bane, my aggrivated wound wouldnt seal wouldnt stop, i was tossed around like a rag doll i remember dumped on a hospital bed, as my friends and family raced to save me, question is diary, did i want to be saved, profound statement right there... Did. i. want. to. be. Saved. did i want to come back to a world town that is so dark and so fucking twisted that it eats at my very soul just breating this god damn fucking toxic air. have a guess. So i lived, i wokeup to pestilence, Tora, nat, aeries, collin all around me. but there was only 2 people i wanted to see.
i hate the full moon.
Dear diary,
Too day was the full moon and i have had no end of fun.... NOT. Lets take it from the top shall we, i was walking the streets of Tox and went to the alleyway between haven and the TV shop, walking through guess who i spy, Lumi, i dont know why i stopped, she's a shadow and a person who i REALLY hate but something compelled me to do so, anyway we talked. She raved about seeing the true me the night i killed her, about how im no better then the rest, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster. Is that enough ? Want some more ? I dont have to justify what i did and wont, not to anyone including you diary, suffice to say me and her have issue and somewhere down the line shes going down... she had the nerve to say i should join her... yeah in a pigs eye.
So i saw niv today, funny the thing me and her have, theres a tension there who knows what it is, but she doesnt half go on. I decided to have some fun so i took her to one of the rooms in the shelter we had a moment. I got a bottle of ordinary water and poured it onto my hand. Its the first time ive seen somethign other then cockyness in her eyes, i dont know what happened with her and holy water but it looked to scare her i felt bad she disappeared off and i was left to my own devices.
I got the wolfsbane vial from Bohny Just before i started my set in the Ktox HQ, Tora was there, Blueray and my boy Dent, poor guy, hes having some problems with his family hope everything gets straightened out hes a good guy. So i DJ and at the end Calleigh Constantine comes in to take over by this time the moon sings to me, i cant concentrate, i worry about if the bane is going to work or not all of a sudden i start to change, Tora injects me while Calleigh restrains me with magic, thank god it worked. Calleigh constantine, people tell me not to trust her, they say she stab you in the back, but from what i have seen she is very trust worthy, she gave me the wolfsbane, she helped with with being restrainied during my change. Who knows i dont know her enough to Judge.
BLUEEEEEERAYYYYY, that woman, i asked her to meet me after i DJed, i wanted to see if she was ok after the magnet incident. I like blue, not in a 'i want to hump you all night long way' but in a 'ah your cool' kinda way, shes not like the others, she discusses her shit and knows when to and not to involve the family, the feeling isnt mutaul i reckon, Shed probably tear my spine out if given the opportunity.. meh.
So anyhow, i co-ordinate a kick ass defence plan, for the full moon, youd think my family could execute it, but no instead they brawl in the streets and nel is greivously wounded... whatever. Anyhow so the wolves attack, and Kahlen Tears off my arm, Diary...i saw them, as i lay there, broken, in the street bleeding the voices of my friends became quieter and quieter, and theyre voices my baby and darling wifes became louder and louder, my regen had been affected by the bane, my aggrivated wound wouldnt seal wouldnt stop, i was tossed around like a rag doll i remember dumped on a hospital bed, as my friends and family raced to save me, question is diary, did i want to be saved, profound statement right there... Did. i. want. to. be. Saved. did i want to come back to a world town that is so dark and so fucking twisted that it eats at my very soul just breating this god damn fucking toxic air. have a guess. So i lived, i wokeup to pestilence, Tora, nat, aeries, collin all around me. but there was only 2 people i wanted to see.
i hate the full moon.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Post 1
Dear Diary,
I found myself in the church today, saw that there was a crowd outside so i investidated. Blueray was waiting for Shea to show and she had brought back up, it always makes me laugh, how the city seems to dance to the beat of the shadows.
It has always irked me that were supposed to be the good guys yet were treated like the bad guys, scum and bible bashers. Fuck it. Stupid mother fuckers. So the Blueray situation is sorted albeit somewhat slopily, she gets put on the cross, seeing her up there was funny for me, shes always the big I AM, its good to see her knocked down a peg or two.
Blueray.... that fucking name... just constantly popping up over and over...this past few weeks....The cyber want back in the shadows its absolutely untrue, always hanging on pieters arm, its almost sad for me, she has potential diary she really does but as she herself as said, and im paraphrasing here.. "shes too far gone..". Nothing i can do, so i wont even try.
So my set on Ktox was eventful, another attempted blowjob from Joenta, A fight in the DJ booth with her, then............... fuck it diary. The second most darkest moment in this fucking city, friends people you trust and you goto for help, turning on you showing you theyre dark side. I lost something tonight.... **the few words before run slightly where his tears have impacted the paper..** I lost something, i lost my will to save this city, what am i fighting for ? What or who needs to be saved? I can still hear that fucking prowler kairas Geers and calls, and lumi.....fucking lumi.. In my darkest moment i was alone, no friends, no help just me in the darkness.
Im done.
**martko closes his diary and places it away**
I found myself in the church today, saw that there was a crowd outside so i investidated. Blueray was waiting for Shea to show and she had brought back up, it always makes me laugh, how the city seems to dance to the beat of the shadows.
It has always irked me that were supposed to be the good guys yet were treated like the bad guys, scum and bible bashers. Fuck it. Stupid mother fuckers. So the Blueray situation is sorted albeit somewhat slopily, she gets put on the cross, seeing her up there was funny for me, shes always the big I AM, its good to see her knocked down a peg or two.
Blueray.... that fucking name... just constantly popping up over and over...this past few weeks....The cyber want back in the shadows its absolutely untrue, always hanging on pieters arm, its almost sad for me, she has potential diary she really does but as she herself as said, and im paraphrasing here.. "shes too far gone..". Nothing i can do, so i wont even try.
So my set on Ktox was eventful, another attempted blowjob from Joenta, A fight in the DJ booth with her, then............... fuck it diary. The second most darkest moment in this fucking city, friends people you trust and you goto for help, turning on you showing you theyre dark side. I lost something tonight.... **the few words before run slightly where his tears have impacted the paper..** I lost something, i lost my will to save this city, what am i fighting for ? What or who needs to be saved? I can still hear that fucking prowler kairas Geers and calls, and lumi.....fucking lumi.. In my darkest moment i was alone, no friends, no help just me in the darkness.
Im done.
**martko closes his diary and places it away**
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