Post 3: Full Moon

**The Handwriting on this page is very forced, as if it has taken great effort to write.**


Dear diary,


Too day was the full moon and i have had no end of fun.... NOT.   Lets take it from the top shall we, i was walking the streets of Tox and went to the alleyway between haven and the TV shop, walking through guess who i spy, Lumi, i dont know why i stopped, she's a shadow and a person who i REALLY hate but something compelled me to do so, anyway we talked.  She raved about seeing the true me the night i killed her, about how im no better then the rest, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster, im not a monster.  Is that enough ? Want some more ? I dont have to justify what i did and wont, not to anyone including you diary, suffice to say me and her have issue and somewhere down the line shes going down... she had the nerve to say i should join her... yeah in a pigs eye.


So i saw niv today, funny the thing me and her have, theres a tension there who knows what it is, but she doesnt half go on.  I decided to have some fun so i took her to one of the rooms in the shelter we had a moment.  I got a bottle of ordinary water and poured it onto my hand.  Its the first time ive seen somethign other then cockyness in her eyes, i dont know what happened with her and holy water but it looked to scare her i felt bad she disappeared off and i was left to my own devices.


I got the wolfsbane vial from Bohny Just before i started my set in the Ktox HQ, Tora was there, Blueray and my boy Dent, poor guy, hes having some problems with his family hope everything gets straightened out hes a good guy.  So i DJ and at the end Calleigh Constantine comes in to take over by this time the moon sings to me, i cant concentrate, i worry about if the bane is going to work or not all of a sudden i start to change, Tora injects me while Calleigh restrains me with magic, thank god it worked. Calleigh constantine, people tell me not to trust her, they say she stab you in the back, but from what i have seen she is very trust worthy, she gave me the wolfsbane, she helped with with being restrainied during my change.  Who knows i dont know her enough to Judge.


BLUEEEEEERAYYYYY, that woman, i asked her to meet me after i DJed, i wanted to see if she was ok after the magnet incident.  I like blue, not in a 'i want to hump you all night long way' but in a 'ah your cool' kinda way, shes not like the others, she discusses her shit and knows when to and not to involve the family, the feeling isnt mutaul i reckon, Shed probably tear my spine out if given the opportunity.. meh.


So anyhow, i co-ordinate a kick ass defence plan, for the full moon, youd think my family could execute it, but no instead they brawl in the streets and nel is greivously wounded... whatever. Anyhow so the wolves attack, and Kahlen Tears off my arm, Diary...i saw them, as i lay there, broken, in the street bleeding the voices of my friends became quieter and quieter, and theyre voices my baby and darling wifes became louder and louder, my regen had been affected by the bane, my aggrivated wound wouldnt seal wouldnt stop, i was tossed around like a rag doll i remember dumped on a hospital bed, as my friends and family raced to save me, question is diary, did i want to be saved, profound statement right there... Did. i. want. to. be. Saved.  did i want to come back to a world town that is so dark and so fucking twisted that it eats at my very soul just breating this god damn fucking toxic air. have a guess. So i lived, i wokeup to pestilence, Tora, nat, aeries, collin all around me. but there was only 2 people i wanted to see.


i hate the full moon.