Torture. Seems to me that this is what this island revolves around, Kidnap, torture, rape. There are calming moments in the storm where everything is good. Me and Cass had a party for the righteous at our apartment, it was fun... seeing my family relaxed, having fun away from the outside world is good. Heck Pilgrim was in lingerie, that in itself is worth it.
Some news since i wrote in here last, i am now the second in command of the righteous, it is good i can watch over them the way i have always wanted too. But as spidermans uncle said 'with great power comes great responsibility' i was summoned to the pit. I say summoned Drake requested i deliver a righteous to them for atrocities against the shadows. HE knew i wouldnt send any of my flock. The only person who knew i was there was Ame, i went alone and the shadows had theyre way. My eye was torn out arms broken and i was stiched together roughly. They left me under the apartments where i was found by Tanpopo, a wolf shot me with silver there was a scuffle but in the end i got back to the apartment and started the long healing process.
Tanpopo....Shes had a colorfull history, being piets pet, being turned by us to the righteous, dieing becoming an angel... She doesnt know it but she has my respect, Good girl that one.
Ever since my torture, ive been locked away i havent ventured far from my apartment, my regen has been taking longer then normal to fix me. I feel Strange....So strange... The constant thrum of my heart beat in my head... im changing....voices.... whispering in the dark......
**THERE IS SCRAWL IN PEN LEADING OFF THE K in DARK**
**The Camera pans out as kos diary is on the floor, Martko Staggers to the bathroom laboured breathing clutching his arm, he walks up to the the bathroom mirror and takes off his bandage over his eye, the wound begins to bubble and broil as the skin that has sealed over it, melts away, Ko grips the edge of the wash basin as two figures appear behind him and look at each over .... Luna begins 'Sister we have been told by the pantheon not to meddle again, i do not want to see mart tortured again' Gaia looks at her sister resolutely as she responds 'To qoute the mortals luna FUCK the pantheon' with that they both reach to ko and one each take a grip of his shoulders There is a roar that ripples throughout the whole of south as Ko is cast in a Brilliant light... the scene shifts Ko is on the floor his eyes snap open as he rises slowly to his feet he looks at his hands just as silver and green veins of power fade he looks at the mirror ...'hm...now.. wheres seifer..'
fade to black.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
post 1 - New but old
Dear Diary,
Well im back, the city hasnt changed much still as dark as ever, joenta is now the leader of the coven, this is amazing and scary at the same time, the coven before were nice... ish... but they have took on a brutal edge now. They bust into the bar the otherday and kidnapped me, one of theyre flock proceeded to break my jaw with her boot. Strange apparently i had called them out. I hadnt i was just being playfull, but hey what can you do all through our friendship ive been hurt, chased and harrased by her all my toxian life. But for all the bad when she looks at me with those eyes, something changes the beast somehow weakens... i dont know maybe ive grown soft on the demon.
Lots of new faces in toxia too, Cassandra, Daston, Emilie, Needles all new people to meet and greet and have adventures with. Lots of old faces have gone....Too many to mention but theyre memory lives on and the times we had are never forgotten.
Had some fights, spun some tunes, made some friends, made some enemies productive week so far :)
till next time
Peace out diary
Well im back, the city hasnt changed much still as dark as ever, joenta is now the leader of the coven, this is amazing and scary at the same time, the coven before were nice... ish... but they have took on a brutal edge now. They bust into the bar the otherday and kidnapped me, one of theyre flock proceeded to break my jaw with her boot. Strange apparently i had called them out. I hadnt i was just being playfull, but hey what can you do all through our friendship ive been hurt, chased and harrased by her all my toxian life. But for all the bad when she looks at me with those eyes, something changes the beast somehow weakens... i dont know maybe ive grown soft on the demon.
Lots of new faces in toxia too, Cassandra, Daston, Emilie, Needles all new people to meet and greet and have adventures with. Lots of old faces have gone....Too many to mention but theyre memory lives on and the times we had are never forgotten.
Had some fights, spun some tunes, made some friends, made some enemies productive week so far :)
till next time
Peace out diary
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Hero reborn.
*The scene begins as the camera pans through the streets of toxia, a familiar Ktox dj theme plays over the scene as the camera winds through the streets, various citizens are seen and a voice begins*
The was darkness where i was, a broiling cold clamy darkness, i was placed on trial by the deities i fought for found guilt of medling and punished for it....
*the camera pans up to the top of the apartments a lone figure stands his coat blowing in the wind as he watches the city*
The angel had promised me that she would be there in my darkest times, but she wasn't those i held dear didnt know what was happeneing to me. I thourght my family had turned its back on me... but they hadnt
*the camera pans up the wolfs body as tears stream down his cheeks*
I have returned and the city is different but the same, Old friends gone as well as old enemies too.... people i have known changed for the worse...
* the camera pans over to the pit as Dom stands on the steps*
My path is clear.... i have awoken .... the darkness is gone.... i have returned.
*the figure throws back his head and arms and roars into the sky scene fades to a black screen and white writing*
Hero. Reborn.
The was darkness where i was, a broiling cold clamy darkness, i was placed on trial by the deities i fought for found guilt of medling and punished for it....
*the camera pans up to the top of the apartments a lone figure stands his coat blowing in the wind as he watches the city*
The angel had promised me that she would be there in my darkest times, but she wasn't those i held dear didnt know what was happeneing to me. I thourght my family had turned its back on me... but they hadnt
*the camera pans up the wolfs body as tears stream down his cheeks*
I have returned and the city is different but the same, Old friends gone as well as old enemies too.... people i have known changed for the worse...
* the camera pans over to the pit as Dom stands on the steps*
My path is clear.... i have awoken .... the darkness is gone.... i have returned.
*the figure throws back his head and arms and roars into the sky scene fades to a black screen and white writing*
Hero. Reborn.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Timeless regret.
**The Camera pans through the streets of toxia, a gust of wind blows open the doors a green vanquisher blade is laid on the alter a vine wrapped around it on the blade is etched an inscription, as a hand gently runs the length of the blade**
'My brothers and sisters, remember we are heroes'
Fade to black.
'My brothers and sisters, remember we are heroes'
Fade to black.
Friday, December 4, 2009
prelude.
**Martko Awakes in the hospital, bound to the table with thick leather straps, in the corner of the room a tall woman leans, wondrous silver hair, a brilliant sliver gown she stares at the wolf as he slowly comes too**
Lunar walks up to Martko and smiles “Ahhh Martko...” she walks around him looking at him, up and then down. “One of my best children, yet every month you deny me” Luna’s eyes sparkle they’re silver surfaces glisten and twinkle as she looks at him. “You listen to my sister Gaia, she uses you as her champion, but I have decided for one night your going to be free. You goto great length to cage yourself Martko Swords….” She runs a gentle finger down his face.
Martko Thrashes around in the straps, his body straining against the magically enhanced bindings “What the heck do you want from me !?!” he jerks from side to side but there is no give at all, he looks up at luna and growls …”Let. Me. Go…………” his chest flushes red as his anger starts to build.
Luna giggles manically and grins watching the wolf struggle “Such fire, such passion ….such a fine creation “she leans down next to his ear and whispers “It was a waste, you being a feline …. Im glad Kahlen had the urge to change you…” she puts her fingers to her lips and muses a moment ...” now... I wonder where she got that urge from eh?” Luna grinned again and then bent of and licked the wolfs cheek “Unfortunately you don’t dance to my beat…. But Gaia is indisposed” she finger walks up the wolfs chest as the fingers touch his skin dark hair sprouts and vanishes as the finger leaves.
“Luna, don’t do this” Martko looks at luna tears welling up in his eyes “you don’t understand what I go through to stop this, I cant lose control.” He summons all of his strength an roars as he tries to pull his arms off to table, to snap his bonds and escape. The roar resonates around the hospital.
Luna smiles “shush now it is time my beautiful child, it is time.” Her hand begins to glow as she places it on Marts chest. “There is no escape, champion of Gaia…. Guardian of the Righteous. There. Is. No. escape….” With that there is an explosion of moonlight that rips through the hospital.
Martko looks down at his chest as the moonlight pours into him in streams, he opens his eyes the green in them shatters as they go white … “no… no… nOOoooOOWWLLLL” marts body starts to bubble, his skin starts to tear, the bond finally give under the transformation as the medical table gives way underneath him, he gets onto his knees and slams his fists over and over into the floor as his transformation completes, he snaps his head to the corridor as luna leans up against the wall looking at him he erupts to wards her ready to attack. Luna merely raises 1 finger and says ‘Stop’ the massive wolf skids to a halt and presses his snout into the floor in a very low bow. ‘goood boy….now Martko… you have 4 hours … four hours of ..” she pauses a moment as she walks past him running her hand through the silver streak of fur on his back …” Freedom..” with that Mart leaps through the doorway and bounds off down the corridor. Luna looks around ‘There. Its done… I don’t like doing that to him… but we are now done…”. As luna looks around 2 deep purple eyes glow and vanish.
Lunar walks up to Martko and smiles “Ahhh Martko...” she walks around him looking at him, up and then down. “One of my best children, yet every month you deny me” Luna’s eyes sparkle they’re silver surfaces glisten and twinkle as she looks at him. “You listen to my sister Gaia, she uses you as her champion, but I have decided for one night your going to be free. You goto great length to cage yourself Martko Swords….” She runs a gentle finger down his face.
Martko Thrashes around in the straps, his body straining against the magically enhanced bindings “What the heck do you want from me !?!” he jerks from side to side but there is no give at all, he looks up at luna and growls …”Let. Me. Go…………” his chest flushes red as his anger starts to build.
Luna giggles manically and grins watching the wolf struggle “Such fire, such passion ….such a fine creation “she leans down next to his ear and whispers “It was a waste, you being a feline …. Im glad Kahlen had the urge to change you…” she puts her fingers to her lips and muses a moment ...” now... I wonder where she got that urge from eh?” Luna grinned again and then bent of and licked the wolfs cheek “Unfortunately you don’t dance to my beat…. But Gaia is indisposed” she finger walks up the wolfs chest as the fingers touch his skin dark hair sprouts and vanishes as the finger leaves.
“Luna, don’t do this” Martko looks at luna tears welling up in his eyes “you don’t understand what I go through to stop this, I cant lose control.” He summons all of his strength an roars as he tries to pull his arms off to table, to snap his bonds and escape. The roar resonates around the hospital.
Luna smiles “shush now it is time my beautiful child, it is time.” Her hand begins to glow as she places it on Marts chest. “There is no escape, champion of Gaia…. Guardian of the Righteous. There. Is. No. escape….” With that there is an explosion of moonlight that rips through the hospital.
Martko looks down at his chest as the moonlight pours into him in streams, he opens his eyes the green in them shatters as they go white … “no… no… nOOoooOOWWLLLL” marts body starts to bubble, his skin starts to tear, the bond finally give under the transformation as the medical table gives way underneath him, he gets onto his knees and slams his fists over and over into the floor as his transformation completes, he snaps his head to the corridor as luna leans up against the wall looking at him he erupts to wards her ready to attack. Luna merely raises 1 finger and says ‘Stop’ the massive wolf skids to a halt and presses his snout into the floor in a very low bow. ‘goood boy….now Martko… you have 4 hours … four hours of ..” she pauses a moment as she walks past him running her hand through the silver streak of fur on his back …” Freedom..” with that Mart leaps through the doorway and bounds off down the corridor. Luna looks around ‘There. Its done… I don’t like doing that to him… but we are now done…”. As luna looks around 2 deep purple eyes glow and vanish.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Post 22: The deepest of wounds.
Dear diary,
I've fought monsters, ive fought Demons, ive fought vampires ive fought everything. I have my scars to prove it. The brightest of silver, the most serrated edge couldnt have cut me any deeper then she has. Ive been tortured for 6 months straight over and over so much so that my very soul is scarred but its nothing compared to what she has done to me.
Lies.... all lies... a fabrication that i so idiotically followed like a little lamb bleeting following the shephard, i mean what the fuck? Apparently the curse was just an experiment by Calleigh to see how far she could push me. Strange seems like everyone wants to take me down, watch me fall go mad/insane. I dont know man, theres only so much i can take you know, joenta Breaking my wrists, sacrificing Tora. Calleigh experimenting on me these so called friends arent looking very friendly.
You know the shower in the hotel, i love that thing reletivly hot water, a pit of privacy, a massive escape i went there after talking to calleigh, i just stood there letting the water wash away everything a moment of serenity and peace in an other wise non stop life, being a knight, being a wolf constant battle... its good to. i found my self weak and fell to my knees in there hands against the tiled wall i just couldnt get up, left the water running and leant against the wall.
i dont know...
i dont know...
I've fought monsters, ive fought Demons, ive fought vampires ive fought everything. I have my scars to prove it. The brightest of silver, the most serrated edge couldnt have cut me any deeper then she has. Ive been tortured for 6 months straight over and over so much so that my very soul is scarred but its nothing compared to what she has done to me.
Lies.... all lies... a fabrication that i so idiotically followed like a little lamb bleeting following the shephard, i mean what the fuck? Apparently the curse was just an experiment by Calleigh to see how far she could push me. Strange seems like everyone wants to take me down, watch me fall go mad/insane. I dont know man, theres only so much i can take you know, joenta Breaking my wrists, sacrificing Tora. Calleigh experimenting on me these so called friends arent looking very friendly.
You know the shower in the hotel, i love that thing reletivly hot water, a pit of privacy, a massive escape i went there after talking to calleigh, i just stood there letting the water wash away everything a moment of serenity and peace in an other wise non stop life, being a knight, being a wolf constant battle... its good to. i found my self weak and fell to my knees in there hands against the tiled wall i just couldnt get up, left the water running and leant against the wall.
i dont know...
i dont know...
Story: A touch of destiny Pt 1
**A story im working on, if you want to be included drop me an IM and ill write you in**
**The scene begins on top of the port authority, a figure stands watching the city, he has long white hair, a mask over his eyes and a staff in his hand that is wrapped with vines, his body is pitter pattered with scars and blemishes. He raises his staff and strikes it on the roof. The scene switches to a feline and a human walking up the stairs.
The human begins ‘don’t be nervous the old wolf has a soft spot for felines, he will be fine with you’ the feline girl seems nervous as they ascend the stairs ‘how.. how does he know who I am, ive only just been here a day..’ the human male stops on the stairs ‘ hun, the old wolf makes it his business to know whos who and whats what… don’t worry…seriously..’ the human smiles and they continue, they come out on the roof of the building Martko watches the city but doesn’t turn merely states..’Malcolm, is this the feline I requested to see…’ Malcolm bows slightly ‘yes old wolf’ Martko Smirks ‘ I knew your father Malcolm he gave me that blasted nick name…gaia bless him’ Mart raises a hand and motions the kitten forward she moves with a unfettered grace towards him, ‘child’ Martko begins as he points out with his staff ‘Do you see this piss ridden hole in front of us …. This is your new home….welcome…. my name is Martko and I will watch over you, if there is anything you need or anyone giving you grief let me or Malcolm over there know’ Martko motions with his hand ‘That is all child.’. The Feline blinks a few times and shrugs as she turns, Martko brings his staff up and sweeps her legs from underneath her as she hits the floor mart presses the end of his staff into her chest ‘first rule little one, never turn your back on anyone’ he looks up ‘Malcolm show her the exit…’ Malcolm takes her by the hand and leads her out.
A few moments later Malcolm comes up the stairs as Martko watches the feline leave the port authority… ‘Malcolm Send a team of three to attack her.’ Malcolm looks shocked ‘Mart are you sure’ Martko turns around ‘if we are to know if she is the one the book foretold we need to stress her to the point where her powers will unlock ...’ Malcolm furrows his brow ‘who should I send.. .’ Martko muses a moment ‘Send….. the Elite.’ Malcolms face drops Martko sees this and responds ‘don’t worry Malcolm I will watch her and make sure they don’t hurt her too much but this is …. Destiny old friend…’ with that Martko raises his staff and starts to chant he brings it down on the roof and a green shockwave erupts from it … the scene shifts to the graveyard as 3 figure start to step out of the trees around, look at each other nod and move off into the city…
**The scene begins on top of the port authority, a figure stands watching the city, he has long white hair, a mask over his eyes and a staff in his hand that is wrapped with vines, his body is pitter pattered with scars and blemishes. He raises his staff and strikes it on the roof. The scene switches to a feline and a human walking up the stairs.
The human begins ‘don’t be nervous the old wolf has a soft spot for felines, he will be fine with you’ the feline girl seems nervous as they ascend the stairs ‘how.. how does he know who I am, ive only just been here a day..’ the human male stops on the stairs ‘ hun, the old wolf makes it his business to know whos who and whats what… don’t worry…seriously..’ the human smiles and they continue, they come out on the roof of the building Martko watches the city but doesn’t turn merely states..’Malcolm, is this the feline I requested to see…’ Malcolm bows slightly ‘yes old wolf’ Martko Smirks ‘ I knew your father Malcolm he gave me that blasted nick name…gaia bless him’ Mart raises a hand and motions the kitten forward she moves with a unfettered grace towards him, ‘child’ Martko begins as he points out with his staff ‘Do you see this piss ridden hole in front of us …. This is your new home….welcome…. my name is Martko and I will watch over you, if there is anything you need or anyone giving you grief let me or Malcolm over there know’ Martko motions with his hand ‘That is all child.’. The Feline blinks a few times and shrugs as she turns, Martko brings his staff up and sweeps her legs from underneath her as she hits the floor mart presses the end of his staff into her chest ‘first rule little one, never turn your back on anyone’ he looks up ‘Malcolm show her the exit…’ Malcolm takes her by the hand and leads her out.
A few moments later Malcolm comes up the stairs as Martko watches the feline leave the port authority… ‘Malcolm Send a team of three to attack her.’ Malcolm looks shocked ‘Mart are you sure’ Martko turns around ‘if we are to know if she is the one the book foretold we need to stress her to the point where her powers will unlock ...’ Malcolm furrows his brow ‘who should I send.. .’ Martko muses a moment ‘Send….. the Elite.’ Malcolms face drops Martko sees this and responds ‘don’t worry Malcolm I will watch her and make sure they don’t hurt her too much but this is …. Destiny old friend…’ with that Martko raises his staff and starts to chant he brings it down on the roof and a green shockwave erupts from it … the scene shifts to the graveyard as 3 figure start to step out of the trees around, look at each other nod and move off into the city…
Monday, November 2, 2009
Post 21 : twisted Mirror
**There are blood spatters all over this page**
Dear Martko,
Did you enjoy my gift to you this weekend, did you revel in the hurt and pain i caused, did you mmmmmmmmmmmmmm Enjoooyyyyyyy yourself.... hmmm? The nurse in cramps created me righteous boy and Calleigh unlocked me againnnnnnn......Tora smelt... wonnnnderous. Ill bet your sitting her all pissy, crying like a big emo baby... wahhh wahhh grow a spine you idiot. See the pain i caused in just 2 nights of freedom do you SEE do you ....remember.... i know you do, going to cut yourself emo boy? hmmm?
take a knife and carve those victims into your chest.... doooo it..... ive seen you let go WOLF boy....i saw you plunge that knife into Lumis heart....no regret no remorse .... it was glorious martko.....gloorrrius.... That bitch wanted to take something from you... that bitch said she killed some one you loved ... and you dealt with it.....daddy would be proud no?
Bye Martko.... i sure ill be out again sooner then you think...'Righteous Knight'
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH
HJAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
**the haha's continue down the remainder of the page...untill*
Riiiinnnnngaa riiinnnngaaa rossssseees a pocket full of posies,
Shhhhhhhhh, shhhhhhhhhh
Evils. on. its way.
Dear Martko,
Did you enjoy my gift to you this weekend, did you revel in the hurt and pain i caused, did you mmmmmmmmmmmmmm Enjoooyyyyyyy yourself.... hmmm? The nurse in cramps created me righteous boy and Calleigh unlocked me againnnnnnn......Tora smelt... wonnnnderous. Ill bet your sitting her all pissy, crying like a big emo baby... wahhh wahhh grow a spine you idiot. See the pain i caused in just 2 nights of freedom do you SEE do you ....remember.... i know you do, going to cut yourself emo boy? hmmm?
take a knife and carve those victims into your chest.... doooo it..... ive seen you let go WOLF boy....i saw you plunge that knife into Lumis heart....no regret no remorse .... it was glorious martko.....gloorrrius.... That bitch wanted to take something from you... that bitch said she killed some one you loved ... and you dealt with it.....daddy would be proud no?
Bye Martko.... i sure ill be out again sooner then you think...'Righteous Knight'
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH
HJAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
**the haha's continue down the remainder of the page...untill*
Riiiinnnnngaa riiinnnngaaa rossssseees a pocket full of posies,
Shhhhhhhhh, shhhhhhhhhh
Evils. on. its way.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Post 20: welcome back.
Dear Diary
Sorry Diary, id lost you for a bit, must have kicked you under the bed at some point......... i don't know what to say really lots of things have happened in your absence, i just dont want to do it anymore. Things weigh heavy on my mind. The vision i had a couple of nights back after my fight with blueray rocked me....
i was on a shattered plain, surrounded by a mass of demons, my family were there as where the righteous all fighting for theyre lives. After the hoard had dispatched my friends and family as i looked on helpless, they proceeded to move on me. they attacked me over and over for hours untill i heard a roared, whispers through the crowd about the leader... master... i look up and see myself... a cross strapped to my Antoinette luminos strapped to it.
The Dark times of my life have been really dark, but killing Lumi... im not going to justify what i did... i took her life i watched her eyes dim as i slid that knife into her heart.....i felt her go limp underneath me. People say wolves are monsters, savage, primal ..... im none of those.. i made a mistake...
Im sorry...
I look in the mirror what do i see?
a Monster a man a layed out destiny.
i look in the mirror what do i see
A champion of Gaia looking back at me.
i look in the mirror what do i see
a murderer a darkness taking over me.
i look in the mirror what do i see
a father a brother a heros destiny
what do i see when the mirror is shattered
My life and my soul lying in tatters.
Help.... me..........please.......
Sorry Diary, id lost you for a bit, must have kicked you under the bed at some point......... i don't know what to say really lots of things have happened in your absence, i just dont want to do it anymore. Things weigh heavy on my mind. The vision i had a couple of nights back after my fight with blueray rocked me....
i was on a shattered plain, surrounded by a mass of demons, my family were there as where the righteous all fighting for theyre lives. After the hoard had dispatched my friends and family as i looked on helpless, they proceeded to move on me. they attacked me over and over for hours untill i heard a roared, whispers through the crowd about the leader... master... i look up and see myself... a cross strapped to my Antoinette luminos strapped to it.
The Dark times of my life have been really dark, but killing Lumi... im not going to justify what i did... i took her life i watched her eyes dim as i slid that knife into her heart.....i felt her go limp underneath me. People say wolves are monsters, savage, primal ..... im none of those.. i made a mistake...
Im sorry...
I look in the mirror what do i see?
a Monster a man a layed out destiny.
i look in the mirror what do i see
A champion of Gaia looking back at me.
i look in the mirror what do i see
a murderer a darkness taking over me.
i look in the mirror what do i see
a father a brother a heros destiny
what do i see when the mirror is shattered
My life and my soul lying in tatters.
Help.... me..........please.......
Monday, September 28, 2009
post 19: i hate this fucking city.... and barbwire dildos.
Dear Diary,
Today was spent for the most part chilling with my dearest Tora, she’s taken to being a guardian quite well, she makes a comment about catnip making felines want to take it in the arse… wellllll ill have to try that out!
Anyway near the evening we meet Blueray by the weapons, im still in a bad mood really from Monday and I just get madder and madder as she hammers on and on, about the FUN the shadows like to have… I decide to just leave and goto the psyc ward in the hospital and sit in one of the padded rooms, these places are funny for me, they hold such fucking bad memories, yet they are the most silent and let you gather your throughts so well, I start to rock on the edge of my own insanity
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I repeat over and over its like a fucking mantra to me, then I hear her, she’s found me, Blueray, again with her A…fucking…gain I think to myself, why wont she leave me alone, she talks through the grate to me, and if im being honest I was expecting her to lock me in and walk but she says shes suffered too, I motion her in and tell her to sit, and she does. I’ve seen the spring in her step and a glint in her eye, ever since she returned home, she seems truly happy for being back in the house.
She tells me of her family, her twin brother and her life before tox, I offer her a chocolate bar I was saving for Calleigh in case she was hungry again, she looks shocked when I do this but eats it any way.
Diary there is a moment in battle, where the monsters your fighting for a brief moment become human, The Nazis and the Allies playing football on Xmas day shit like that, this moment when she was telling me of her past I saw a different Miss Darkes, Shes been fucked by this city …. HARD…. The stuff that has happened to her, the darkness that has tainted her, you want the truth diary, I like blueray, not in a eww lets catch a movie and make out kind of way, I think like is the wrong word actually, I respect? Blueray, I Understand? Blueray. I really don’t know.
She loves her family, and for good reason, they have saved her over and over and over, of course she loves them….and ive found the word… I RESPECT that.
**Martko walks home and walks into the apartment, pesti is zonked out on the sofa, he shakes his head and puts his coat over her to make sure shes not cold. He smiles … as he goes into his room and closes the door, his head hits the pillow and out he goes, the scene shifts to a purple hazey vision, Martko is seen walking up the stairs of the pit, slowly each foot fall resonating around like a hammer on a bell, he gets to the top and a dark cloaked figure is standing there. The Figure begins “ Swoooordss.. such a pleasure…what brings you here ?” Martko looks up “you know what ive come for Demon… Let me pass, im taking her back …” he goes to move past the figure but is stopped by it, and pushed off the steps.
martko impacts the concrete below as the dark figure leaps through the air landing on top of him, its hood flops back to reveal bluerays face, mart struggles underneath her as she raises a hand and jams it into his gut she leans down as a black ichor starts to run over his body engulfing him, as the blackness moves into his mouth the last thing Martko hears is .. “Embrace the darkness” blue pulls her hand out of him and licks his blood off her hand .
Martko Bolts up right in bed.. “holy fuck shit…” his face and body covered in sweat.. he falls back looking at his door, he puts both hands over his eyes… and just lies there not wanting to sleep again ..
Today was spent for the most part chilling with my dearest Tora, she’s taken to being a guardian quite well, she makes a comment about catnip making felines want to take it in the arse… wellllll ill have to try that out!
Anyway near the evening we meet Blueray by the weapons, im still in a bad mood really from Monday and I just get madder and madder as she hammers on and on, about the FUN the shadows like to have… I decide to just leave and goto the psyc ward in the hospital and sit in one of the padded rooms, these places are funny for me, they hold such fucking bad memories, yet they are the most silent and let you gather your throughts so well, I start to rock on the edge of my own insanity
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I fucking hate this city…
I repeat over and over its like a fucking mantra to me, then I hear her, she’s found me, Blueray, again with her A…fucking…gain I think to myself, why wont she leave me alone, she talks through the grate to me, and if im being honest I was expecting her to lock me in and walk but she says shes suffered too, I motion her in and tell her to sit, and she does. I’ve seen the spring in her step and a glint in her eye, ever since she returned home, she seems truly happy for being back in the house.
She tells me of her family, her twin brother and her life before tox, I offer her a chocolate bar I was saving for Calleigh in case she was hungry again, she looks shocked when I do this but eats it any way.
Diary there is a moment in battle, where the monsters your fighting for a brief moment become human, The Nazis and the Allies playing football on Xmas day shit like that, this moment when she was telling me of her past I saw a different Miss Darkes, Shes been fucked by this city …. HARD…. The stuff that has happened to her, the darkness that has tainted her, you want the truth diary, I like blueray, not in a eww lets catch a movie and make out kind of way, I think like is the wrong word actually, I respect? Blueray, I Understand? Blueray. I really don’t know.
She loves her family, and for good reason, they have saved her over and over and over, of course she loves them….and ive found the word… I RESPECT that.
**Martko walks home and walks into the apartment, pesti is zonked out on the sofa, he shakes his head and puts his coat over her to make sure shes not cold. He smiles … as he goes into his room and closes the door, his head hits the pillow and out he goes, the scene shifts to a purple hazey vision, Martko is seen walking up the stairs of the pit, slowly each foot fall resonating around like a hammer on a bell, he gets to the top and a dark cloaked figure is standing there. The Figure begins “ Swoooordss.. such a pleasure…what brings you here ?” Martko looks up “you know what ive come for Demon… Let me pass, im taking her back …” he goes to move past the figure but is stopped by it, and pushed off the steps.
martko impacts the concrete below as the dark figure leaps through the air landing on top of him, its hood flops back to reveal bluerays face, mart struggles underneath her as she raises a hand and jams it into his gut she leans down as a black ichor starts to run over his body engulfing him, as the blackness moves into his mouth the last thing Martko hears is .. “Embrace the darkness” blue pulls her hand out of him and licks his blood off her hand .
Martko Bolts up right in bed.. “holy fuck shit…” his face and body covered in sweat.. he falls back looking at his door, he puts both hands over his eyes… and just lies there not wanting to sleep again ..
Post 18: The inner beast?!
Dear Diary,
So Anyhow I get up and me and Collin decide to go crazy loco, we start running around Shaynee Xi from the shadows, being all well, mental. She goes inside and we decide to crip on the Pit roof. We dance, we have a laugh its good just to let go.
We grab a crate of beanie babies… pink elephant beanies to be exact, so we take the create to the bottom of the pit stairs, Shay appears at the top and we hide it, Who knows what we were going to do with those beanies, but were caught red handed Collin vanishes, and leaves me too it.
I create Shay a flower, she seems appreciative of it, Mikayla doesn’t and storms off in a huff, Me and Shay exchange pleasantries till Vitalia appears behind me, the fallen angel who poisoned me to teach me a lesson when I was a feline… A LESSON, oh my god, it gets me mad just thinking about it. It makes me laugh it does, really that they hold all other life in disregard apart from the houses?! What the fuck…. Fuck it any how… Im invited into the pit… Well this is a new one on me, shay invites me in and Mikayla is dangling from some device in the ceiling, she sees me and gets all huffy again and walks off; don’t know what I have done to her but meh im sure shell get over it.
So im in the PIT! It smells, and its hot, not the ideal place, shadows start to surround me, Brianna is the first to join the circle, diary she truly scares the shit out of me, quite literally she is insane to the point that im sure if she put her mind to it she could warp the very fabric of reality around her, quick note not to fuck with her just yet. The Kashgari bops in, Drake, it’s a who’s who of shadows, Shay talks to me about my inner beast they all keep going on about it, they want me to let go, they want me to Go wild, 2 shadows have seen my rage, Blueray and Lumi
--There is a whole paragraph scribbled out, the words not legible at all—
Shay keeps trying to touch me, I fucking hate that, why do they feel the need to touch me, I don’t care for they’re touch I hate the connection I hate the feeling, but obviously she has some sort of deficiency and keeps try, I finally let her and she touches my cheek, she drones on about the shadows finally taking over the city, yeah more fun for me to be honest, bring it on. Shay gives me one week to make a decision I have no idea what that decision is, to release my ‘inner beast’ to join them? Do they not realise that I won’t, that I really am not interested in they house, it doesn’t tempt me in the slightest, but they won’t listen, so here’s a brick wall, keep bashing your head against it.
I DJ later that day and Calleigh and Tikamu the prowler drops by, Tikas a Solid person, some one has taken her eye, I ask if I can be of assistance she declines my offer, then I hand Calleigh a note.
Elemental, monster you are not…..i understand….
She goes very mad I don’t know why, I see now how her life was when she was back a human... Tora arrives and the situation bubbles down … when I finish my set I goto bed……….. Sleep…. Even my sleep is invaded by darkness… regret… and…. Cheese on toast… MMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
So Anyhow I get up and me and Collin decide to go crazy loco, we start running around Shaynee Xi from the shadows, being all well, mental. She goes inside and we decide to crip on the Pit roof. We dance, we have a laugh its good just to let go.
We grab a crate of beanie babies… pink elephant beanies to be exact, so we take the create to the bottom of the pit stairs, Shay appears at the top and we hide it, Who knows what we were going to do with those beanies, but were caught red handed Collin vanishes, and leaves me too it.
I create Shay a flower, she seems appreciative of it, Mikayla doesn’t and storms off in a huff, Me and Shay exchange pleasantries till Vitalia appears behind me, the fallen angel who poisoned me to teach me a lesson when I was a feline… A LESSON, oh my god, it gets me mad just thinking about it. It makes me laugh it does, really that they hold all other life in disregard apart from the houses?! What the fuck…. Fuck it any how… Im invited into the pit… Well this is a new one on me, shay invites me in and Mikayla is dangling from some device in the ceiling, she sees me and gets all huffy again and walks off; don’t know what I have done to her but meh im sure shell get over it.
So im in the PIT! It smells, and its hot, not the ideal place, shadows start to surround me, Brianna is the first to join the circle, diary she truly scares the shit out of me, quite literally she is insane to the point that im sure if she put her mind to it she could warp the very fabric of reality around her, quick note not to fuck with her just yet. The Kashgari bops in, Drake, it’s a who’s who of shadows, Shay talks to me about my inner beast they all keep going on about it, they want me to let go, they want me to Go wild, 2 shadows have seen my rage, Blueray and Lumi
--There is a whole paragraph scribbled out, the words not legible at all—
Shay keeps trying to touch me, I fucking hate that, why do they feel the need to touch me, I don’t care for they’re touch I hate the connection I hate the feeling, but obviously she has some sort of deficiency and keeps try, I finally let her and she touches my cheek, she drones on about the shadows finally taking over the city, yeah more fun for me to be honest, bring it on. Shay gives me one week to make a decision I have no idea what that decision is, to release my ‘inner beast’ to join them? Do they not realise that I won’t, that I really am not interested in they house, it doesn’t tempt me in the slightest, but they won’t listen, so here’s a brick wall, keep bashing your head against it.
I DJ later that day and Calleigh and Tikamu the prowler drops by, Tikas a Solid person, some one has taken her eye, I ask if I can be of assistance she declines my offer, then I hand Calleigh a note.
Elemental, monster you are not…..i understand….
She goes very mad I don’t know why, I see now how her life was when she was back a human... Tora arrives and the situation bubbles down … when I finish my set I goto bed……….. Sleep…. Even my sleep is invaded by darkness… regret… and…. Cheese on toast… MMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Post 17: Dance,sit or fuck off.
Dear Diary,
Why don’t I just step off, why don’t I just step off the ledge and let the beast that dwells within out, seems like it’s the popular choice nowadays. There is a reason I won’t turn, I have control and I have focus, the ramblings on the shadows, is just that ramblings. They Walk around claiming they’re free but they far from free, you know what they are like they’re like a cult…. But yeah ‘free’ you know what pisses me off they’re like a light is to a moth, new people come to the city and flock en masse to this already huge faction, but we carry. I. Carry on cause it is all I can do.
So yeah I had Beans on toast today, one of the many luxuries Angus brings me from the mainland when he drops off new arrivals, I opened the can and let the beans hit the pan there was an instant sizzle, pesti came out wearing a shirt that was about a million sizes too big but it looked good, she asked if she could steal some, I said she could, she ate in her room, I ate on the balcony, watching the world walk by below me. I fucking love stuff ‘on toast’.
I went on Ktox today, and just started mouthing off, I had my beer I had my bro and my girl and we had a good time, it’s been … quiet in the family everyone just keeping themselves to themselves. I do it for attention, the Ktox thing people love listening and I love entertaining them, I Bash the shadows on purpose when in Ktox HQ I know one or more will come and give it the big un. I LOVE it, Kaira and Blueray come in after having become shadows.
Kaira Diesel, that made me somewhat sad, i…. I hate seeing her dancing to they’re beat, but she has made her choice. She starts to speak to collin, trys to attack him, I tell them that its enough “Dance, sit or fuck off!” I say, I cant be dealing with the shit im still not right about Monday, but fuck it.
Blueray Darkes, she was happy drinking dancing, all smiley that she is now back where she belongs, I really don’t care, she can do what she likes I have no time for shadows, bar Pestilence.
So Kaira states that she is going to fuck Collin up after my set and so I decide to text her telling her to leave it and I will try and look out for her prowlers. She smiles at this and sends me a text. She has not fallen all the way, just from reading her reply I won’t put it in these pages out of respect, but I believe she … well.. Fuck it I don’t know … well see.
I sort out the collin/kaira situation and head home; I put my head on the pillow and out I go… cheese on toast tomorrow.
Why don’t I just step off, why don’t I just step off the ledge and let the beast that dwells within out, seems like it’s the popular choice nowadays. There is a reason I won’t turn, I have control and I have focus, the ramblings on the shadows, is just that ramblings. They Walk around claiming they’re free but they far from free, you know what they are like they’re like a cult…. But yeah ‘free’ you know what pisses me off they’re like a light is to a moth, new people come to the city and flock en masse to this already huge faction, but we carry. I. Carry on cause it is all I can do.
So yeah I had Beans on toast today, one of the many luxuries Angus brings me from the mainland when he drops off new arrivals, I opened the can and let the beans hit the pan there was an instant sizzle, pesti came out wearing a shirt that was about a million sizes too big but it looked good, she asked if she could steal some, I said she could, she ate in her room, I ate on the balcony, watching the world walk by below me. I fucking love stuff ‘on toast’.
I went on Ktox today, and just started mouthing off, I had my beer I had my bro and my girl and we had a good time, it’s been … quiet in the family everyone just keeping themselves to themselves. I do it for attention, the Ktox thing people love listening and I love entertaining them, I Bash the shadows on purpose when in Ktox HQ I know one or more will come and give it the big un. I LOVE it, Kaira and Blueray come in after having become shadows.
Kaira Diesel, that made me somewhat sad, i…. I hate seeing her dancing to they’re beat, but she has made her choice. She starts to speak to collin, trys to attack him, I tell them that its enough “Dance, sit or fuck off!” I say, I cant be dealing with the shit im still not right about Monday, but fuck it.
Blueray Darkes, she was happy drinking dancing, all smiley that she is now back where she belongs, I really don’t care, she can do what she likes I have no time for shadows, bar Pestilence.
So Kaira states that she is going to fuck Collin up after my set and so I decide to text her telling her to leave it and I will try and look out for her prowlers. She smiles at this and sends me a text. She has not fallen all the way, just from reading her reply I won’t put it in these pages out of respect, but I believe she … well.. Fuck it I don’t know … well see.
I sort out the collin/kaira situation and head home; I put my head on the pillow and out I go… cheese on toast tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
post 16: fucking... shadows.
Dear Diary,
Today may be up there as one of the hardest days ive have ever had in Toxia, I awake to find that there has been a message placed in the church on the wall in blood and surprise, surprise it was the lord of shadow … Pieter who had penned it. So anyhow he is demanding Pilgrim be brought to him by the end of the day. Well suffice to say it didn’t happen and the shadows descended en masse to the church.
No I love insurmountable odds situations the few versus the many but fuck me, they brought everyone and they’re dog and there were 6 of us. Any how there was some smack talking, and Pieter and Pilgrim went upstairs, Pieter came back down dragging pill stopping to give Jules a soul shard and thanking her. Pilgrim was lashed to the cross and whipped brutally.
I don’t have the fight in me anymore diary I don’t think…. I don’t think I can go on, I said it before this city doesn’t want a hero, some one to try and fight back the shadows. I’ve book at ticket on the next ferry back to the mainland…… im done.
**The camera pans through the city, towards the harbour, Martko is seen standing there with his bag preparing to board the now docking ferry, it slowly comes to a halt and new arrivals to toxia he looks around and sees them talking. ‘I hear there’s this superhero group called the righteous’ the little bright eyed neko says Martko Smirks to himself and whispers ‘heroes’ and shakes his head he slowly walks up the ramp and greets the fat captain of the ferry ‘ Angus’ the captain replies ‘ Maaarrrtkoo why aren’t you on Ktox I love listening to that on the mainland friend..’ Martko shakes his head ‘im done Angus, im going home’ Angus doesn’t reply merely regards the wolf. Martko Turns and looks at toxia and closes his eyes, there is a scream from the night … ‘Help me ….. Heeeeellppp’ The bright eyed neko calls from behind the weapons shop… Martko doesn’t move, Angus turns around ‘not going to help … hero?’ Martko closes his eyes tighter, Angus moves forward and places a hand on Marts shoulder ‘Ko. The strongest of faith is tested in this city, are you going to give up, are you going to let them win ?’ Mart snaps around and then erupts into the sky leaping with his bag on his back, the screams do continue but now they are male voices and theyre are spliced with roaring and the sounds of battle, it all dies down and a lone voice is heard.. ‘ Names Martko Righteous knight… Welcome to toxia miss’
The Camera pans to Angus’ face his eyes start to glow green as his voice takes on a duality a womans superimposed on his own
‘its not time for you too leave yet Martko Swords, your destiny awaits’
Angus turns around his normal voice returns
‘PREPARE TO CAST OFF, FULL SPEED AHEAD’
*fade to black*
Today may be up there as one of the hardest days ive have ever had in Toxia, I awake to find that there has been a message placed in the church on the wall in blood and surprise, surprise it was the lord of shadow … Pieter who had penned it. So anyhow he is demanding Pilgrim be brought to him by the end of the day. Well suffice to say it didn’t happen and the shadows descended en masse to the church.
No I love insurmountable odds situations the few versus the many but fuck me, they brought everyone and they’re dog and there were 6 of us. Any how there was some smack talking, and Pieter and Pilgrim went upstairs, Pieter came back down dragging pill stopping to give Jules a soul shard and thanking her. Pilgrim was lashed to the cross and whipped brutally.
I don’t have the fight in me anymore diary I don’t think…. I don’t think I can go on, I said it before this city doesn’t want a hero, some one to try and fight back the shadows. I’ve book at ticket on the next ferry back to the mainland…… im done.
**The camera pans through the city, towards the harbour, Martko is seen standing there with his bag preparing to board the now docking ferry, it slowly comes to a halt and new arrivals to toxia he looks around and sees them talking. ‘I hear there’s this superhero group called the righteous’ the little bright eyed neko says Martko Smirks to himself and whispers ‘heroes’ and shakes his head he slowly walks up the ramp and greets the fat captain of the ferry ‘ Angus’ the captain replies ‘ Maaarrrtkoo why aren’t you on Ktox I love listening to that on the mainland friend..’ Martko shakes his head ‘im done Angus, im going home’ Angus doesn’t reply merely regards the wolf. Martko Turns and looks at toxia and closes his eyes, there is a scream from the night … ‘Help me ….. Heeeeellppp’ The bright eyed neko calls from behind the weapons shop… Martko doesn’t move, Angus turns around ‘not going to help … hero?’ Martko closes his eyes tighter, Angus moves forward and places a hand on Marts shoulder ‘Ko. The strongest of faith is tested in this city, are you going to give up, are you going to let them win ?’ Mart snaps around and then erupts into the sky leaping with his bag on his back, the screams do continue but now they are male voices and theyre are spliced with roaring and the sounds of battle, it all dies down and a lone voice is heard.. ‘ Names Martko Righteous knight… Welcome to toxia miss’
The Camera pans to Angus’ face his eyes start to glow green as his voice takes on a duality a womans superimposed on his own
‘its not time for you too leave yet Martko Swords, your destiny awaits’
Angus turns around his normal voice returns
‘PREPARE TO CAST OFF, FULL SPEED AHEAD’
*fade to black*
post 15: Elemental, monster
Dear diary
Sunday was a slow day; the only thing of real note was that I had a vision come to me while training with Tora. It was a vision of a red headed girl, being experimented on I recognise her as Calleigh, they really did a number on her. I remember the tag they use for her …. Elemental, monster……Monster… the people on the mainland use that word a lot to describe those which are different. It’s what the nurse used to call me at cramps. Anyhow as I said Sunday was slow. Catch you later.
Sunday was a slow day; the only thing of real note was that I had a vision come to me while training with Tora. It was a vision of a red headed girl, being experimented on I recognise her as Calleigh, they really did a number on her. I remember the tag they use for her …. Elemental, monster……Monster… the people on the mainland use that word a lot to describe those which are different. It’s what the nurse used to call me at cramps. Anyhow as I said Sunday was slow. Catch you later.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Post 14: The Room
Dear Diary,
I did my rounds today and yesterday and everything went swimmingly, i ran around in my wolf form . God i love it, the wind through my fur, the reaction of people, the pure primal freedom i feel, I bound around the city watching listening, my senses enhanced my massive paws clacking and chittering on the concrete, i speak to the Ryders, they are frightened untill i start to talk using the collar the coven gave me. They are safe so i leave, i check on the coven and Prowlers, making sure all are safe.
I hate slow days i get bored and explore finding a Padded room..................I cant do this.........i cant talk about cramps it makes me sick just thinking about it diary, i just sat in the room, hunched over gripping my thighs, waiting for the porters to come for me for the next session with the nurse... i hated that place they tried to break me, and .. well .. they did, i hated my feline self... i couldnt stand looking in the mirror.. EMO right? Fuck you Diary .... You try it sometime.
I leave and walk out side, roaring with all my heart in a hope the people still in cramps on the mainland will hear me and know there is a way to escape. i hear movement behind me and see Calleigh, standing in the tunnel she looks weak i run to her and check shes ok, i take her to a hospital bed and she tries to attack me, feed on me, not good i am let go and we discuss some bits and bods and i leave.
Thats it really...oh and CRAMPS is the Crammound Mental institution i was transfered to when my wife and daughter was murdered.
So.. cheese on toast for breakfast tomorrow... yumm.. i suppose.
I did my rounds today and yesterday and everything went swimmingly, i ran around in my wolf form . God i love it, the wind through my fur, the reaction of people, the pure primal freedom i feel, I bound around the city watching listening, my senses enhanced my massive paws clacking and chittering on the concrete, i speak to the Ryders, they are frightened untill i start to talk using the collar the coven gave me. They are safe so i leave, i check on the coven and Prowlers, making sure all are safe.
I hate slow days i get bored and explore finding a Padded room..................I cant do this.........i cant talk about cramps it makes me sick just thinking about it diary, i just sat in the room, hunched over gripping my thighs, waiting for the porters to come for me for the next session with the nurse... i hated that place they tried to break me, and .. well .. they did, i hated my feline self... i couldnt stand looking in the mirror.. EMO right? Fuck you Diary .... You try it sometime.
I leave and walk out side, roaring with all my heart in a hope the people still in cramps on the mainland will hear me and know there is a way to escape. i hear movement behind me and see Calleigh, standing in the tunnel she looks weak i run to her and check shes ok, i take her to a hospital bed and she tries to attack me, feed on me, not good i am let go and we discuss some bits and bods and i leave.
Thats it really...oh and CRAMPS is the Crammound Mental institution i was transfered to when my wife and daughter was murdered.
So.. cheese on toast for breakfast tomorrow... yumm.. i suppose.
Post 13 : Friday Night Freak OUT
Dear Diary,
So friday rolled around and i was in a bit of a good mood, so i wandered down to the Ktox HQ, Blue was on so i thourght i would pop in and say hello. Anyhow got there and there were a LOT of people there, Quiet, Kaira, Celestra, Calleigh and a few others i didn't recognise. So i sat down and got to bantering. All of a sudden, i felt really hot, i couldnt catch my breathe, my vision blurred and it felt like i was going to die, theres the thing death ....death comes to everyone eventually, but when its staring you in the face its hard to shake the feeling of weakness you have.
It was the same with Full moon just gone, my life ebbing away, the voice of my friends disappearing into the darkness. Its like a blanket, you can feel it covering you, gently trying to close your eyes.......* theres a sentance scribbled out you cant make out**
fuckit... You know what is really strange, i could have sworn i heard kaira calling for a doctor, now that scared the shit out of me diary, concern from the Rites keeper of the prowlers, i never would have thourght it possible. Calleigh Scans me and she says it looks like im cursed, Yeah figures.... but fuck it... no curse can hold me down, least i thourght it couldnt, i try an leave, my head still spinning i leap to the top of the apartments.. and land Hard, i Cant move.... Calleighs followed me and i try and crawl away from her to the edge looking over, she talks to me and i use my strength to stand roaring into the toxian sky, I WONT BE KEPT DOWN! YOU HEAR ME!! ** These words are writting hard scarrin the next 6 pages** Weakness, theres no time... too many people depend on me, i cant, i have to fight.
The Evening rolls around and the pack get frisky, and capture Joenta, i watch with niv as they circle her, Niv hisses a warning, to me not to interfere... I take out my phone and text Kaira, shes unblocked me .. WHAT THE FUCK.. ok .. .im scared now.... She tells me the situation but doesnt have a plan .. Kahlen is beaten in Combat by Hera.. and the prowlers start to barter, i try to help them now at Joentas side making sure shes ok, my rage builds, one sure fire way to get me mad is touch my friends.. i attack the wolf called Raiden and quickly i go down .... I tried.... but was left defeated. Tora helps me as well as a Kitten called Celestria.
i stand up and go to bed..
I hate being helpless, there are some killer fighters in this city.... i think its time to train dont you? Anyway diary i have one thing say... SHIGENGA!
So friday rolled around and i was in a bit of a good mood, so i wandered down to the Ktox HQ, Blue was on so i thourght i would pop in and say hello. Anyhow got there and there were a LOT of people there, Quiet, Kaira, Celestra, Calleigh and a few others i didn't recognise. So i sat down and got to bantering. All of a sudden, i felt really hot, i couldnt catch my breathe, my vision blurred and it felt like i was going to die, theres the thing death ....death comes to everyone eventually, but when its staring you in the face its hard to shake the feeling of weakness you have.
It was the same with Full moon just gone, my life ebbing away, the voice of my friends disappearing into the darkness. Its like a blanket, you can feel it covering you, gently trying to close your eyes.......* theres a sentance scribbled out you cant make out**
fuckit... You know what is really strange, i could have sworn i heard kaira calling for a doctor, now that scared the shit out of me diary, concern from the Rites keeper of the prowlers, i never would have thourght it possible. Calleigh Scans me and she says it looks like im cursed, Yeah figures.... but fuck it... no curse can hold me down, least i thourght it couldnt, i try an leave, my head still spinning i leap to the top of the apartments.. and land Hard, i Cant move.... Calleighs followed me and i try and crawl away from her to the edge looking over, she talks to me and i use my strength to stand roaring into the toxian sky, I WONT BE KEPT DOWN! YOU HEAR ME!! ** These words are writting hard scarrin the next 6 pages** Weakness, theres no time... too many people depend on me, i cant, i have to fight.
The Evening rolls around and the pack get frisky, and capture Joenta, i watch with niv as they circle her, Niv hisses a warning, to me not to interfere... I take out my phone and text Kaira, shes unblocked me .. WHAT THE FUCK.. ok .. .im scared now.... She tells me the situation but doesnt have a plan .. Kahlen is beaten in Combat by Hera.. and the prowlers start to barter, i try to help them now at Joentas side making sure shes ok, my rage builds, one sure fire way to get me mad is touch my friends.. i attack the wolf called Raiden and quickly i go down .... I tried.... but was left defeated. Tora helps me as well as a Kitten called Celestria.
i stand up and go to bed..
I hate being helpless, there are some killer fighters in this city.... i think its time to train dont you? Anyway diary i have one thing say... SHIGENGA!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Post 12 : its quiet.. too quiet
Dear Diary,
So I slept in late today, the bed was warm and nommy, I heard pestilence get up and go out early, no doubt up to something for her lord Pieter. So I get up and make myself breakfast, when I was on the mainland I grabbed some bits and bobs nothing totally amazing just bread and cheese. Mmmmm cheese on toast, damn that is some GOOD eats.
**there is a picture drawn roughly of a piece of toast with some cheese on top.**
So I walk downstairs, and the receptionist stops me, nice girl. Anyhow she says I have a package, I take it, it’s heavy, and open it … it’s a packed from a place called Chrysalis Labs…. Strange when I was working for Comtac Industries, chrysalis was a start up company. So I open the package and there a two blades inside crossed and covered with silk, I unwrap them and take a hold of them, they are freezing to the touch but weighted perfectly in my grasp, the receptionist tries to flirt with me asking if she could ‘grip my sword’.…. It gets tiresome sometimes, seems like every conversation must descend into this, which I don’t like at all, buutttt hey life goes on.
I Start my new patrol and walk around the city checking on the lesser factions, I talk to the riders, the little wolf is a fiery one, I make small talk and move onto the Coven, no one in the shop so I move onto the prowlers, they are …. Frisky… they are all high on catnip, Kaira Diesel starts running around me in circles, saying she wants to play, I DON’T, I have no desire to play with her, people ask me why I care about what happens to the prowlers, and I told joenta this later on in the day, they remind me of my baby girl, I have a soft spot for felines, I used to be one and my baby Jessie was one too, every time I see the fish Co. I want to see if they’re ok, out of some subconscious need or want to protect them, I couldn’t protect my family that night but I can help the prowlers now. So Kaira and Quiet talk to me about a few things, and I big them good day. I meet Niv by the park, she gives me my belt and we have another moment.
Back at the church I get a call from Nel saying she has a shadow to torture I go and see and its Kash, hes being mind controlled by Nel, so anyhow Niv arrives and Nel Tortures the SHIT out of this guy making him do all crazy stuff, in the end he gets strung up onto the cross. After the event I take him to the hospital, justice is served in my eyes and I make sure he is comfortable and leave.
The Evening roles around and tox is quiet, I do my second patrol of the day and run into Joe, she has a new look about her which is very nice, we talk for what seems like hours, her eyes still that lovely blue, they glitter in the night sky as she talks about how ive failed her as a friend, and diary I can honestly say I have failed her. When the righteous start on her I should be the first one to her defence, she makes point after point after point and I cant defend, she is right im a shit friend, so I make a Gesture a pinky promise to be there for her and her new family whenever they need me, she does the same just for me and not the righteous.
That’s pretty much it for today, Catch you tomorrow Diary.
So I slept in late today, the bed was warm and nommy, I heard pestilence get up and go out early, no doubt up to something for her lord Pieter. So I get up and make myself breakfast, when I was on the mainland I grabbed some bits and bobs nothing totally amazing just bread and cheese. Mmmmm cheese on toast, damn that is some GOOD eats.
**there is a picture drawn roughly of a piece of toast with some cheese on top.**
So I walk downstairs, and the receptionist stops me, nice girl. Anyhow she says I have a package, I take it, it’s heavy, and open it … it’s a packed from a place called Chrysalis Labs…. Strange when I was working for Comtac Industries, chrysalis was a start up company. So I open the package and there a two blades inside crossed and covered with silk, I unwrap them and take a hold of them, they are freezing to the touch but weighted perfectly in my grasp, the receptionist tries to flirt with me asking if she could ‘grip my sword’.…. It gets tiresome sometimes, seems like every conversation must descend into this, which I don’t like at all, buutttt hey life goes on.
I Start my new patrol and walk around the city checking on the lesser factions, I talk to the riders, the little wolf is a fiery one, I make small talk and move onto the Coven, no one in the shop so I move onto the prowlers, they are …. Frisky… they are all high on catnip, Kaira Diesel starts running around me in circles, saying she wants to play, I DON’T, I have no desire to play with her, people ask me why I care about what happens to the prowlers, and I told joenta this later on in the day, they remind me of my baby girl, I have a soft spot for felines, I used to be one and my baby Jessie was one too, every time I see the fish Co. I want to see if they’re ok, out of some subconscious need or want to protect them, I couldn’t protect my family that night but I can help the prowlers now. So Kaira and Quiet talk to me about a few things, and I big them good day. I meet Niv by the park, she gives me my belt and we have another moment.
Back at the church I get a call from Nel saying she has a shadow to torture I go and see and its Kash, hes being mind controlled by Nel, so anyhow Niv arrives and Nel Tortures the SHIT out of this guy making him do all crazy stuff, in the end he gets strung up onto the cross. After the event I take him to the hospital, justice is served in my eyes and I make sure he is comfortable and leave.
The Evening roles around and tox is quiet, I do my second patrol of the day and run into Joe, she has a new look about her which is very nice, we talk for what seems like hours, her eyes still that lovely blue, they glitter in the night sky as she talks about how ive failed her as a friend, and diary I can honestly say I have failed her. When the righteous start on her I should be the first one to her defence, she makes point after point after point and I cant defend, she is right im a shit friend, so I make a Gesture a pinky promise to be there for her and her new family whenever they need me, she does the same just for me and not the righteous.
That’s pretty much it for today, Catch you tomorrow Diary.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Post 11 : Shadow into righteous
Dear Diary,
Sorry i havent been around, i went to the mainland to handle some business that needed taking careof, anyhow its done so i am back and ready to rock. Sooooo, yesterday.... What can i say it was interesting... pilgrim has made one of the shadows think she's a righteous, shes done some stuff for us and they were looking to de collar the stranger. Her name is tan, and she used to be pieters pet. enough of that a moment, we had a training session with TC it was good even though tc's turn out was a bit lax, but it was made up for by the rest of the city So we had a good time, sparring talking in the heavy air. Watched blue fight Esso that was fun cause she lost, i laughed on the inside. TC are ok fighters, some of them needed some work but the righteous were helping them as requested as part of the deal.
I sit here on the deck by the beach, the toxic water lapping against it, my knee still aching from last night. Lets go back to that shall we, well jason arrives demanding 9 righteous to have batting practise on ... what a jackass, anyhow he blah blah blahs about bullshit, and pretty much 20 shadows descend upon the church at the front, through the hospital you know the score, theyre here for Tans collar we fight my nose gets broke and knee blown out by a bat hit. I see jason go to hit one of the crusaders i use all my force to get into the way. Have you ever been in a fight, have you ever had that knockout blow land on you, it has to be the most sicken moment in existance. Its a moment where you see the people around you still fighting as you fade to a horrid, horrid black...
I awake to find the battle over, and people watching on, i think its bullshit how they come to watch the fight and just stand there watching good people have 10 bells of shit kicked out of them, but they are just fuckers really. An angel was strung up on the cross during the fight after we helped her down and i went to find tan. Tan was up in the attic, she was obviously distraught, i did my best to calm her down, she wants to know why they wanted her collar, and who her owner was. I only found out after the point that she was pieters pet. So much for family eh they were attacking her with a horrid vishciousness.... not even trying to help her bring her back to them. So anyhow ... its cold... im off see you tomorrow diary.
Monday, September 14, 2009
post 10: weekend of madness
Dear Diary,
The weekend was a long and boring on, I use the word boring a lot but in actuality it wasnt boring in fact it was as far from boring as one could get.... wow... I just refered to myself as 'one' Christ I need fresh air.
So... Where to start... oh! I know, I had a bike crash on saturday, that was fun, smashing headlong into a wall, is never fun, especially when you dont have a helmet on. Niv was showing me her bike when we lost control and smashed into a wall across the way from the fish co, I was knocked out cold and a few broken ribs, Niv seemed fine which is always good, shes one hard ass vampire. I was roughly dragged to the Vets.. I remember now, and I was healed up there... then I blacked out.
I awake to find myself in the shelter sitting in the rec room, the TV on infront of me, How the fuck did I get there... I have no fucking idea.... anyway Niv comes in and we have a moment... strange vamp that one cute but she can be VERY deadly.
My mind wasn't my own today, the food I had taken was driving me insane, the boundaries I had put in place shattered, and my mind unravelling slowly, Gaia barely took hold again and steered me to the correct way of thinking.
I had a conversation with Calleigh Constantine over the weekend, we discussed the old way of honouring things, discussed our other selves, theres something about her that makes me at ease when im around her.... I KNOW I KNOW DIARY... shes a demon, but as I said before, there are paths that we choose to walk and paths that are chosen for us. I hope …. well I do hope she has chosen the right path. I give her a Rose as a symbol of the moment, a token wrapped in my life energy to allow it to be sustained in this festering shit mire that is Tox.
**there is a sentence scribbled out... “weeeeeeeeeee IM. Coming.”
I dont know eversince that feed ive been feeling strange, seeing things, feeling things... im going to speak to someone about them soon enough. Speaking of mental, I spoke to Amanda on the weekend as well, she had some VERY wise words for me that allowed me to gain a deeper insight into vampires and the way they tick. Also it gave me a cracking shot of her ass the next time we talked, the outfits she selects are..... well nothings left to the imagination... but it that way.
So I went and met Blueray to get the new comms up and running, and it went well. We arrived and spoke all civilised and the like, we were handed the phones and thats, that. We took them back and they are snazzy, I took one apart at the apartment, as I said im not as stupid as people think, and I did used to work for a top flight scientific and weapons research facility on the mainland... but no one asks so I dont tell.
So there you have it diary, Shit happens again … w000t till next time..
LOL of the day(and ohhh how i loled.)
yeah guess soim joining pack
fuck it
gonna go werewolf
and walk around with a tail in my ass
and bark and do doggy style all day
Post 9: Diner blues. (Dream)
**Martko walks into his apartment, takes off his clothes and crawls into his bed, he falls asleep almost instantly. The Scene shifts into black and white tones, a diner is seen, the scene is a standard American diner, Martko walks in a suit and hat and orders his standard, pancakes and syrup and sits down.
Then the sound ‘thud… thud….thud…. thud…’ Slowly the thuds came at first then started to build. The Scene starts to stutter, colour then black and white, the colour is present day tox Martko swaps from a pristine suit, to his dirty toxian clothes. The thuds grow louder and louder, darkness begins to surround the diner. Mart rises from his diner table, the present day coloured scene more prominent now as he walks to the door, there’s a dingaling of the bell it slices through the thuds like a banshee, the relentless thudding builds to a crescendo, then stops.
Martko balls his fists looking at the darkness then back at the patrons in the diner, all of them sitting or cowering from the black. Martko roars and leaps into the darkness, the roar is cut short, a deathly silence falls on the scene, the kind of silence that only happens when something has gone wrong, when something bad has happened. A figure bursts out of the darkness, mart is seen fighting something, a broiling black figure, mart tries to break away, but hands burst out and start grabbing as the Lycan is pulled back… with a roar. Mart Screams and sits up in his bed his heart racing his body covered in sweat… “ARGHH…Fuck …FUCK! FUCCCCKK!!” Mart gets up out of bed, shattered and falls slowly to his knees then slumps to the floor.
Then the sound ‘thud… thud….thud…. thud…’ Slowly the thuds came at first then started to build. The Scene starts to stutter, colour then black and white, the colour is present day tox Martko swaps from a pristine suit, to his dirty toxian clothes. The thuds grow louder and louder, darkness begins to surround the diner. Mart rises from his diner table, the present day coloured scene more prominent now as he walks to the door, there’s a dingaling of the bell it slices through the thuds like a banshee, the relentless thudding builds to a crescendo, then stops.
Martko balls his fists looking at the darkness then back at the patrons in the diner, all of them sitting or cowering from the black. Martko roars and leaps into the darkness, the roar is cut short, a deathly silence falls on the scene, the kind of silence that only happens when something has gone wrong, when something bad has happened. A figure bursts out of the darkness, mart is seen fighting something, a broiling black figure, mart tries to break away, but hands burst out and start grabbing as the Lycan is pulled back… with a roar. Mart Screams and sits up in his bed his heart racing his body covered in sweat… “ARGHH…Fuck …FUCK! FUCCCCKK!!” Mart gets up out of bed, shattered and falls slowly to his knees then slumps to the floor.
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